Yep, that's pretty much it.
Now that I have the cash for a new PC, I don't want it; and
console gaming has lost it's touch with me. I use to be very
avid about riding my bicycle around but I don't feel like there's
any meaning to keep trying something that's only temporary.
Even the thought of making money from making art isn't
satisfactory; and the fun I want can't be obtained because
I'm too old or the price is too high to bother wasting an effort
to try. So I'm in limbo living my life without dreams or
aspirations of becoming something greater. I just don't care. I feel
like I'm a dog, doing what I'm told without question or reasoning
and I'm fine with that; even if it's the wrong side of a situation.
So yeah, that's pretty much it. I don't expect anyone to know
or even understand what I'm saying nor do I want an answer. I'll just
try to blend it but at the same time not stand out either, is that
wrong... maybe but, I'm not in the mood to care where I stand at the
Just conflicting thoughts of nothing and something that I, myself
can't even explain enough to make sense... Wasn't even trying
to make this journal meaningful, just writing nonsense that doesn't
make any damn sense to me but, I'm just laying it out anyway.
Blah. Moving on... sorry for the interruption.